Angelic
09-06-2003, 01:50 PM
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Picture this: Buffy writing a letter before she goes to meet the Master
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Buffy is sitting a chair by her window tears streaming down her face as she writes.........
To whoever finds this,
I am writing this letter in the hope that someone will find it once I'm gone. Tonight I am going to face my Fate head on and I do not want to do it without saying goodbye first.
I have been in Sunnydale for such a short time, yet there are so many people here who I care about; Mum, Giles, Willow, Xander and Angel especially. This letter is for you. In the hope that you will understand why I have to do this.
So much as happened since I came to Sunnydale. I still don't know if I came here of my own choice or whether Fate had a hand in making my mum open a gallery here. Sometimes I wonder if my whole life is mapped out in prophecies contained within old, dusty, crumbling tomes scattered around the world, it certainly seems like it at the moment.
Until today I was a happy 16 year old girl. Well, sometimes. It's hard to be happy when you have to keep such a big secret. In LA it was hard, no one knew, not after Merrick died. I had no one to turn to. At least here I have friends who understand and love me anyway.
"Into each generation, a Slayer is born. One girl, in all the world. A Chosen One. One born with the strength and skill to hunt the vampires, to stop the spread of evil. . ."
Why me? Why is it my Fate to be the Slayer? I don't want it, with what is going on in my life anyway I really don't need it, but still my Fate follows me around like a bad smell. Did mum know when she was pregnant with me what she was bringing into the world? A girl with the strength and skill to rid the world of things that go bump in the night?
What if I had been born a day later? What if I had been conceived a day later? It all could have been so different. There would have been another Slayer, I would still be in LA, no Hellmouth, no monsters. But I would not want to wish my Fate, my Destiny on someone else.
I'm sorry, mum, for not telling you. It was safer for you if you were kept in the dark about your daughter's little secret. I think you knew though. Remember Parents Evening at school? I went out to fight the 'gang kids on PCP'? They were not gang kids they were vampires. Big, nasty vampires with big pointy teeth. The only thing they care about (other than their next meal) is to see me dead. I'm too much trouble for them. Surely you must have wondered why I was fighting them with a big piece of pointy wood? Maybe you didn't realise, and this comes as a shock for you. I'm sorry. Given time I could have put it a lot better. Giles will explain everything to you.
It is growing dark and I know my time is running out. I will write faster as I have much to say before I go and meet my Fate head-on.
I already have grown to love many friends. What will happen to them when I have gone? These people mean so much to me, I do not want to se them hurt or killed, which is why I must do this.
I'm rambling. It's because I am so scared. I have never been so scared in my entire life, not even when I found out I was the Chosen One, the one girl in all the world. Then, at least, I was innocent enough not to realise exactly what I was taking on when I become Merrick's student. Tonight though I know exactly what is facing me when I meet the Master.
I don't want to die.
(Pause)
There is so much I want to do with my life, I don't want to end it now, when it has only just begun. It's just not fair.
I can hear Giles' words ringing in my ears as he told me my Fate. I know it is upsetting him as much as it is hurting me. I know he doesn't want me to die. When I do a part of him will die also. Replaying in my head over and over again is the scene in the Library today. The hurt on the faces of those I love when I scream hate at them. The look on Angel's face.
Giles so wanted the prophecy to be wrong, so did Angel. But Giles is right about one thing. The Codex is never wrong. I should have guessed something was up when blood started pouring out of the taps like in a bad horror movie. I shouldn't have thrown the books at Giles. He didn't deserve that. It's not his fault my Destiny is cruel to me.
I'm sorry.
But what about everyone else? Xander asked me to go to the dance today, with him. It was so sweet. I didn't realise he felt that way about me. Xander is a friend, one of my best friends, but some things are not to be. He should be with Willow. They're perfect for each other, I just wish Xander would realise that. I wonder if they know?
Angel. What will happen to Angel when I'm gone? There will be nothing left for him in Sunnydale. Where will he go? Will he think of me? Or will I just disappear into the dust of years? He couldn't stay in Sunnydale the next Slayer will surely stake him, he is a vampire after all.
Look at me, in love with a person who I am destined to kill. My Fate sure didn't see that one coming.
Normal 16 year old girl? Pah. There's nothing normal about me. I am a vampire Slayer, I kill creatures that are not supposed to exist. I'm in love with a vampire and I was supposed to be going to the Spring Fling tonight.
Why does destiny always get in the way of a good time? Every single time?
Time is running very short. I must get ready. The murders at school was the decider. The fact they DARED to do that. The Master needs to be stopped. I know that going to him will free him, but I can not fight my destiny, my Fate any longer. I will face him and I will kill him.
Please forgive me if I fail.
I am sorry.
Buffy Anne Summers
She puts down her pen and puts her letter in a evelope and puts it near her door.
She wipes her tears from her eyes and picks up her holy water , cross , and stake then climbs out of her window to face her fate.
TO BE CONTINUED..........
Picture this: Buffy writing a letter before she goes to meet the Master
***
Buffy is sitting a chair by her window tears streaming down her face as she writes.........
To whoever finds this,
I am writing this letter in the hope that someone will find it once I'm gone. Tonight I am going to face my Fate head on and I do not want to do it without saying goodbye first.
I have been in Sunnydale for such a short time, yet there are so many people here who I care about; Mum, Giles, Willow, Xander and Angel especially. This letter is for you. In the hope that you will understand why I have to do this.
So much as happened since I came to Sunnydale. I still don't know if I came here of my own choice or whether Fate had a hand in making my mum open a gallery here. Sometimes I wonder if my whole life is mapped out in prophecies contained within old, dusty, crumbling tomes scattered around the world, it certainly seems like it at the moment.
Until today I was a happy 16 year old girl. Well, sometimes. It's hard to be happy when you have to keep such a big secret. In LA it was hard, no one knew, not after Merrick died. I had no one to turn to. At least here I have friends who understand and love me anyway.
"Into each generation, a Slayer is born. One girl, in all the world. A Chosen One. One born with the strength and skill to hunt the vampires, to stop the spread of evil. . ."
Why me? Why is it my Fate to be the Slayer? I don't want it, with what is going on in my life anyway I really don't need it, but still my Fate follows me around like a bad smell. Did mum know when she was pregnant with me what she was bringing into the world? A girl with the strength and skill to rid the world of things that go bump in the night?
What if I had been born a day later? What if I had been conceived a day later? It all could have been so different. There would have been another Slayer, I would still be in LA, no Hellmouth, no monsters. But I would not want to wish my Fate, my Destiny on someone else.
I'm sorry, mum, for not telling you. It was safer for you if you were kept in the dark about your daughter's little secret. I think you knew though. Remember Parents Evening at school? I went out to fight the 'gang kids on PCP'? They were not gang kids they were vampires. Big, nasty vampires with big pointy teeth. The only thing they care about (other than their next meal) is to see me dead. I'm too much trouble for them. Surely you must have wondered why I was fighting them with a big piece of pointy wood? Maybe you didn't realise, and this comes as a shock for you. I'm sorry. Given time I could have put it a lot better. Giles will explain everything to you.
It is growing dark and I know my time is running out. I will write faster as I have much to say before I go and meet my Fate head-on.
I already have grown to love many friends. What will happen to them when I have gone? These people mean so much to me, I do not want to se them hurt or killed, which is why I must do this.
I'm rambling. It's because I am so scared. I have never been so scared in my entire life, not even when I found out I was the Chosen One, the one girl in all the world. Then, at least, I was innocent enough not to realise exactly what I was taking on when I become Merrick's student. Tonight though I know exactly what is facing me when I meet the Master.
I don't want to die.
(Pause)
There is so much I want to do with my life, I don't want to end it now, when it has only just begun. It's just not fair.
I can hear Giles' words ringing in my ears as he told me my Fate. I know it is upsetting him as much as it is hurting me. I know he doesn't want me to die. When I do a part of him will die also. Replaying in my head over and over again is the scene in the Library today. The hurt on the faces of those I love when I scream hate at them. The look on Angel's face.
Giles so wanted the prophecy to be wrong, so did Angel. But Giles is right about one thing. The Codex is never wrong. I should have guessed something was up when blood started pouring out of the taps like in a bad horror movie. I shouldn't have thrown the books at Giles. He didn't deserve that. It's not his fault my Destiny is cruel to me.
I'm sorry.
But what about everyone else? Xander asked me to go to the dance today, with him. It was so sweet. I didn't realise he felt that way about me. Xander is a friend, one of my best friends, but some things are not to be. He should be with Willow. They're perfect for each other, I just wish Xander would realise that. I wonder if they know?
Angel. What will happen to Angel when I'm gone? There will be nothing left for him in Sunnydale. Where will he go? Will he think of me? Or will I just disappear into the dust of years? He couldn't stay in Sunnydale the next Slayer will surely stake him, he is a vampire after all.
Look at me, in love with a person who I am destined to kill. My Fate sure didn't see that one coming.
Normal 16 year old girl? Pah. There's nothing normal about me. I am a vampire Slayer, I kill creatures that are not supposed to exist. I'm in love with a vampire and I was supposed to be going to the Spring Fling tonight.
Why does destiny always get in the way of a good time? Every single time?
Time is running very short. I must get ready. The murders at school was the decider. The fact they DARED to do that. The Master needs to be stopped. I know that going to him will free him, but I can not fight my destiny, my Fate any longer. I will face him and I will kill him.
Please forgive me if I fail.
I am sorry.
Buffy Anne Summers
She puts down her pen and puts her letter in a evelope and puts it near her door.
She wipes her tears from her eyes and picks up her holy water , cross , and stake then climbs out of her window to face her fate.
TO BE CONTINUED..........